rainy mood but promised sunshine

so i didn't post yesterday b/c i wasn't in the mood. it's been raining for 3 days and we've been inside climbing the walls. it's supposed to be sunny and warm for the rest of the week and i can't wait to bask in it (and get out of these 4 walls!)
my mood turned into that of the chilly cold rain when i looked at our bank account. the numbers aren't howard county, md worthy. worry of paying upcoming bills began to set in and my stomach transformed into a knot. the knot began to tighten as i read a status on fb. (this is why you dear blogger need to become my obsession.) fb becomes a mirror into someones soul and with each post and status you begin to figure out who a person truly is. this particular status made my soul weep.
with all these heavy things on my shoulder i tried to make the best of the day with my men. it's a rarity we get to spend a whole Saturday together and i didn't want my saddened mood to ruin it.
rob told me i had to run; it wasn't an option and i could choose between the rain or treadmill. in my college training days i would have chose outside. motherhood has caused me to prove my tenacity in other ways then getting soaked in 40 degree weather. reluctantly i went on the treadmill.
the heaviness of worry made my pace slow. as the belt turned, so did my mind. each thought seemed to fall at my feet, onto the belt and roll off the back of the platform. as my mind cleared i began to hear my answers.
yes, I will provide. (phil 4:19) you have never been without. yes, you are where you need to be. yes, the daily investment in the boys is far more important than a savings investment. yes, I will reveal myself, in my time.
without knowing it i was running faster than i had in months. the weight was gone. all that was left was an empty yoke. after catching my breathe i screamed as the father did in mark 9:24 "I do believe; help my unbelief."
i know that worry will set in again. i know my stomach will be in knots again. i also know i will ponder on them for half a day before taking them to the One who is faithful to answer. maybe i should add to the statement of mark father, help my unbelief and procrastination.