with a little help

halloween is in a few days, which is evident by all the ghosts, witches, and other goblin costumes you see in stores and out in peoples yards. the stephens family has their own set of costumes as well. rob and i are going to be homer and marge simpson. wyatt is the beast off of x-men and ty is baby spiderman. (yes, wyatt is a super hero nut and picked out his costume) it's going to be fun pretending you're someone else for a night. i'm thankful i don't have to go through life wearing the blue beehive hair because blue is just not my color. i also realized i don't have to be who i have been pretending to be.
ever since ty was born ,a year ago saturday, i have put on a superwoman/supermom suit. i believed that i could do it all. i could raise & keep up with two kids under 3, keep up this house, help in the youth, train for races, and save the planet from global warming all off of no sleep, and no help. i would rather take them to the grocery store and risk coming home with half my items and permanent banishment form the store, then ask for someone to watch them. i would rather drink a pot of coffee in the morning than ask rob to get up with ty in the middle of the night.
but then i got tired. very tired. too tired to be the wife and mom i need to be. it was a trip to the grocery store with both boys that did me in. i shall not write about the horrific inscident. even stephen king doesn't have the words to pen such an event. just trust me when i say it was bad. i came to the humbling fact i need help. so i asked. it wasn't that hard. and that is what we're here for.
we are put on this planet with other humans not just to stare at them, or ignore, or to get annoyed at. those things will happen because we are fallen humans. we are put here to help each other out. we are not meant to and can't make it alone. we need to ask one other to get on and ride this boat called life. through the calm waters and the crashing waves. yes, admitting you can't do everything is a charlie horse to the ego but asking has to be done to get through. the good thing about charlie horses is that they go away quickly. your ego will get over it. the stress of not getting help won't and the effects will catch up to you.
i still have to put on my superwoman cape so i can fly on step ahead of the boys, but i'm going to try and leave the whole suit in the closet. i might pull it out from time to time because i'm stubborn! plus someone else might need my superhero abilities.
so sing with me the joe cocker tune..."i get by with a little help from my friends."